Hello
there!
I write
again after a bit of a hectic week for various reasons, but today
I’ll just explain one of them.
Today’s
post is quite a personal one and I needed some time to get my
thoughts in order and talk about that. It’s about graduating and
leaving school. Leaving Mannheim and what is my future looking like
now.
So,
last week, on Saturday, I finally graduated from the Bachelor of Arts
that I did during the past three years in the Akademie des Tanzes in
Mannheim. I still can’t believe it and I think it won’t become
real until the actual certificate gets home. School time is done for
good and it’s exciting and freeing but also scary.
The
past three years have been a life changing experience for me. I’ve
grown up in many many ways and I’ve formed friendships that are
unbreakable. I’ve also learned so much in all possible ways and
I’ve changed heaps as well. I’ve had wonderful and unique
opportunities and ADT will always have a very special place in my
heart.
But, as
I said, one of the most important points is growing up and
friendship. Those were the hardest things for me to let go coming
back home. Yes, I’m coming back to Barcelona for the next year for
various reasons.
To
begin with, I believe that every dancer knows that there’s a point
in their lifes when they feel that they don’t need to have the
school life anymore. By that I don’t mean that there’s no need
for coaching, taking classes and perfecting their techniques, but
more of the official and ruled life inside a professional academy.
I’ve
been in an official ballet academic life for the past ten years
almost and as I’ve said, I’ve grown up and I have other ways I
want to approach my own training and I feel the need of getting
different perspectives and experiences to form myself as a ballet
dancer.
During
this past year, I’ve been really committed to school life and that
obliged me to say no to several auditions, projects and performances
out of the school that could’ve given me other opportunities and
filled up my CV. But I don’t regret that!
I mean,
everyone has their own time and place and I needed a good training in
ballet in order to feel ready to take new steps and new challenges.
The past three years have been fulfilling in this aspect and I’m
very thankful for it.
Actually,
I decided that I wouldn’t stay for the extra year the academy
offered because I really wanted to travel to audition and take
projects, workshops, ballet intensives and so on freely to keep on
going with my education, among other reasons.
Of
course it was hard to say goodbye to a place that I’ve called home
for the past three years but sometimes you feel it’s time to take
new challenges and although they’re scary, they can also be very
rewarding in the future.
Coming
back home is also something I’ve internally «craved» because
sometimes, by being alone, you lose perspective and having your
family right next to you helps you watch things with a fresh mind.
You have your lifetime support right next to you and being back into
the city you know and love, makes you feel comfortable and renews
your energy to take the next big step.
I must
confess though, that saying goodbye to my friends, that are my second
family in Germany, was one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to
do. I’ve never cried so much and I’ve never desired to hug
someone more than the time I met with them to say the definite
goodbye before I went to the airport. After a week, I still doesn't
feel a 100% good and I miss them very very much, but hopefully I get
to see them again sooner than I think.
All in
all, it’s a hard decision to say goodbye to what you know but as I
said, facing new stages in life can be scary but is always for good
reasons and good purposes that will fulfill us in the future.
I hope
you enjoyed this post and I inform you that it won’t be the last
one about Germany or the Akademie des Tanzes as there’s still lots
of things to explain from this experience!
I wish
you have a lovely Sunday afternoon and I’ll see you tomorrow to
tell you about last Friday’s performance back in Barcelona!
Love,
Muriel
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